Tattoos?

Hey guys, I know basically no one is reading my blog since I went emo and everything but last year was the worst year I ever went through. If anyone reads this, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! k its like 12 days after the new year but its still my first post in the new year.

Anws, the reason why I decided to make a post is cos I just found out something new about God's Word and I'd like to keep it in mind through my blog. It's abt tattoos and honestly, I did not mind tattoos in the past. I felt as long as nothing demonic or satanic is tattooed on your body, it's totally fine. Even better if it's like a cross or something right? But I just found out that it is stated in the Bible about the Christian view on these. Leviticus 19:28 states “‘Do not cut your bodies for the dead or put tattoo marks on yourselves. I am the LORD. That's quite clear enough right?

I'm totally not condemning anyone who has a tattoo. Some close friends of mine do. The thing is that they either did it when they didn't know Christ or backslid or they did not even know that it was in the Bible. I would say few Christians do. So whoever is reading this, you are informed!! Thanks for reading guys. Take care:)

To Those of You Who Have Made Me Not Care

thanks for helping me realise that some friends just ain't worth it

Update!!

hey guys, not sure how many of u are still here but for those of u tt are, heres an update. guess i have sort of given up on many of my friends from ac and i really cant be bothered abt it anymore. id just get frustrated and well i decided tt my time and energy can be better used to hang out with friends who really care abt me and still want to stay in contact and on ministry wrk. so basically ive become more focused in using my free time to serve God like for PlayMax coming up and serving in my church more often. maybe God gave me these friendship probs so tt i can focus more on Him. like i always say, nothing happens without a reason.

now for those of u who noe actually wad was up with my friends, i guess u might tell me tt its my fault and stuff but rmb tt the story tt u are hearing is from their side and quite obviously biased towards them. so id of course come across as some jerk or loser or wadever. anws tts why i really cant stand pple who talk abt others. now tts not to say i dont, im human, of course i share my probs with others. but i always make a point to tell them tt this is my own perspective and tt it will be biased towards me. so their opinion abt tt person doesnt change. now wad im facing is a few pple are talking bad abt me and i guess it affects others and now everyone seems to hate me. well if u are one of those pple, srsly just come and talk to me and find out wad kind of person i am before making ur judgements. well anws one recent incident was the social experiment i was wrking on. u see, i was asking pple tt i was nv close to to meet up and i started it out with just asking the girls since the guys are in army and its harder to coordinate with them. so how was i to noe tt the girls would start talking amongst themselves and see me as some desperate guy. i even stated in my msg to them tt this was something i was trying out and tt if they dont wanna meet its fine. i think tt this social experiment has really turned into something else and i feel tt it is an even greater social experiment now. but its tough to hear tt ur actions can be so easily misintepreted and stuff. but of course im so glad to have my awesome friends still by my side.

ok anws ive chosen to ignore those pple and if u dont wanna talk to me, then so be it. as long as ive apologised, i think ive done my part. anws recently since ive last updated, i went for FOP 2011. had an awesome time there worshipping the Lord and was exposed to John Bevere, the speaker for the event. now him being American, his views are sorta different from tt of the normal Singpore church. his views on grace and the power of grace was very inspirational and it seemed true, though i still have my doubts. so i decided to get his book and read it proper. i havent even started yet but when i do, ill review the book here. now tt has basically wad has been going on with my life so far. been watching movies and recently went to STGCC 2011 and reviews on all of those things will be up on my blog soon. anws tts it for me for now. cya:)

tired

relationships are so tough. i just feel like giving up and going back to being my old anti social self. so difficult to try. getting really lazy. HELP!!!

Friends Pt. ??

hey guys, cant rmb which part of these long friends posts im at rite now but i think its either 3 or 4? anws wad i really wanted to type here is to clear up any misconceptions of my largely critised view abt friendship. i think this phrase sums it up. i care more abt my friends than the friendship. like i said before, im quite ok with friendships not wrking out. yes im sad tt its not there anymore but im ok with it happening. its just wad happens in life. but i do still care abt tt friend and i would pray for her/him still. they would still be pple i want to be happy. its just tt if u do not really wish to stay in contact with me or even to be friends, and i tried my best to talk to u but u do not respond or respond in a harsh manner, then i dont see why i would need to put in so much effort to salvage the situation when u cant be bothered to even reply me.

i do still care for u and if 10 yrs down the road u text me, id still reply as soon as possible. so its not really tt im totally fine with friendships not wrking out, but its tt if one party does not want to respond to the other, i dont see why one shld make so much effort since effort has alr been made but failed. i guess this is a way for me to noe tt my purpose in tt person's life has been over. so like in my experiment, im trying to meet up with all the pple ive lost contact with and if tt person is fine with not reconnecting, then im fine with tt. anws i just thought to come up and reiterate my stand and to clear any miscommunications abt my statement last yr. ok im going off now. cya:)

Social Experiment

hey guys, well to the few pple tt are still reading. anws ive recently started this mini social experiment where im trying to meet up with pple i havent seen in ages or was nv really close to for a meal. i guess since i got posted to this awesome posting having awesome wrk hours, i decided to use them productively to meet up with pple i nv had the time to. its part trying to see who would be willing to meet me even though we are not close and part me trying to see how God can use me to impact pple's lives. and i guess part me getting over the loss of my old friends? i really wanna do lots of things with my new found time and so ill be also trying to start up a new review blog on all things geek/nerd from tv to comics and all things pop culture. but again its sorta an experiment so ill only post the link here once ive gotten it going. this blog will still hopefully be functioning. its still gonna be dedicated to my thoughts and my sharings on how God has wrked in my life. i noe i sorta stopped on the qt thing but tts cos i find tt God has been talking to me on a personal lvl and in other ways so the qt thing doesnt wrk as well anymore.

so this blog will hopefully be still alive now tt i have more time. ok so to start this blog's new life again (is this v4.0 alr?), ill start with a sharing on how God has really impacted my life especially in ns. He has been all the more real to me in ns and really my fears abt backsliding were nothing. could really see how God kept me close to Him and brought me through everything. like i said in the previous post, He has really blessed me greatly and i really wouldnt be having such a relatively slacker time in ns without His mercy and grace. i could have easily been posted to either Cougar, Pegasus or even 1st Coy in tekong but through His grace, i got posted to the slackest Leopard where the warrants really blessed me. Again, His grace was showered upon me when He sent me to a stay out unit where i can go out everyday. so through His blessings, i decided i need to use them wisely so im starting to be more committed in helping out at CF back at ac and to help back at SYFC too. hopefully i can use this blessing to bless others too. ok tts it for me for now. gonna try to start tt new blog now. cya soon:)

:(

hey guys, guess its been super long since ive posted here. just felt like coming on and sharing my thoughts. dont think anyone is reading this now though. if u are just drop me a comment on the chatbox.

well to get things started, life has been awesome as usual. God has really blessed me in my life and tt can espcially be seen in my ns life. i was really afraid tt i would have faltered in my faith but it has been steady and to a certain extent even growing. even through the tough training ive made awesome friends and the sergeants and warrant officers were really awesome pple. when i ooc-ed it was even more fun making friends with the sergeants and the awesome clerk and fellow comic book nerd syafiq. and after tt, God blessed me with a stay out unit as an ammo supply asst. (storeman). so really theres nothing to complain abt regarding my life as a whole.

but really, im concerned abt my relationships. most of u noe abt my muchly controversial belief abt friendship, however the misconception is tt i dont care. this couldnt be further from the truth. yes i do accept tt my purpose in one's life is over but i still feel sad and maybe to a certain extent, heartbreak, abt a wonderful friendship lost. ive been going through tt a lot lately and i dont noe wad ive been doing wrong. if u noe me well, i used to be super introverted but acjc changed me a lot. now tt im out of there, i fear tt im returning to my past self. i rmb when i started this blog and i had really awesome friends to share this blog with. sad to say, i drifted away from some of them (thank God not all) in j2 and now tt we are out of jc, i think tt we are no more than aquaintances (and u noe i dont really believe in having aquaintances). im really concerned with wad i might have done to cause our friendships to die out and i noe tt i might have wronged them in some way (be it intentionally, unintentionally or just a simple misunderstanding) i really just need someone to tell me wad went wrong cos im really oblivious to wad happened. the friendship just stopped.

so yea im glad tt God has been good to me and really thankful. its just tt this aspect of my life has really been at the back of my mind throughout these past few months and i needed to get it out on here. dont noe if the pple who were such awesome friends would see this but i really hope so. i really thank God for reminding me too tt if its time for a friendship to end, its time to trust God to take care of the friends i held so dearly to and to trust God tt all will be fine as i typed this post. my role in tt person's life may or may not be over but everything is in His hands. when the pple feel its the right time to tell me, i guess they would. me am :( still though.

but to u awesome pple who have stayed with me all these while, supporting and encouraging me, i really thank God for u. my life wouldnt have been as awesome as it has been without u. hope tt God will continue to bless our friendship and tt it will continue to grow.

thanks for reading this. cya:)

Project Serve So Far Pt. 3

hey guys, well as promised again, this is my recap of wad i learnt last week at project serve and some thoughts on stuff tt has been my concern. ill start with the street e event on thurs. it started off with a really interesting with one of the most difficult person an evangelist can face. and mind u this was my first ever street e. this guy has been to church before but has turned away and now lives by his own value and justice systems. however, when he explained his value system and we pointed out flaws and contradictions in his reasoning, he said tt he knew tt there were contradictions and just didnt care. when asked whether if he was going to hell and could just avoid it by believing in the Lord he once knew, he said tt he didnt care whether he went to hell or not. in a sense this was a challenge mainly cos he was being illogical and unreasonable in a sense. i actually would prefer someone tt even though lives according to his own value system but can be reasoned to. so instead of sharing the gospel (since he alr had a vague idea of wad it was and didnt seem interested in being told it), we just talked a bit on his value system and got his contact. hopefully God can use me and SYFC to reach out to this guy. the rest of the day i met with a grp of sec 3 boys and a sec 1 boy. they were really willing to hear u out but the prob with kids their age is tt they just listen and are not really responsive. so it was not as interesting and it was difficult to see whether they really understood all tt u were talking abt.

God indeed has a way to push His point and make it clear to us. today's qt was on Acts 28:16-31 and indeed it shows how Paul preached even when confined in Rome, not turning anyone away and just preaching to anyone who would hear. i would say tt initially i tried to avoid contacting the first guy again since he seemed so distant and in a sense weird. but now after thinking abt it, i can see tt he needs God quite badly. not to say tt all of us dont but i can see tt he has something missing in his life currently and i feel tt he would be so much happier if he would just get to noe God and trust his life unto Him. so i have really decided to try my best to help this guy out.

well i was planning on sharing all ive learnt the past few days this week but i have something more pressing and troubling for me tt i have to share it rite now. the week's lessons i can share tmr. well actually im being overwhelmed with concern for 2 grps of pple. the CF in AC and my church's youth grp. im not sure why they are in such bad states really. im thinking why Satan is so intent on damaging these ministries so badly. or is it God training and prompting pple to stand up and take responsibility. well to start things off, i was alr concerned with the CF when i stepped down from the comm last year. as u noe, i am really devoted to CF and my heart is always there with them. actually the reason why is tt it was the ministry tt got me back and connected with God again and it was there tt i realised my passion to serve God and to commit my life into full-time ministry. so in a sense i felt uneasy leaving CF to the new comm. from the start of the interviews, we realised tt not many pple signed up this yr. so we didnt have much choice in the new comm as we needed them to fill certain rolls.

the new comm was mainly made out of young Christians with not many obvious skills. i mean for my comm there was the obvious Jiap who was awesome at pub and Zara and Eve who were awesome worship leaders, and the high Jan tt was awesome at planning meaningful and time killing games for the whole CF to enjoy. and the rest of us filled our roles pretty well with logs, admin, prayer and discipleship all being done well. so i was just hoping tt even though there was no obvious talents tt they would still fill their roles pretty well. but after our step-down service, when i went back for the CF session, i realised tt not the full comm was there. even before they took up their commship, when i was still in comm they didnt come regularly. well anws to keep a long story short due to the time, the comm was not only spiritually young (which is not their fault) but also uncommitted. the CF-ers were also not committed and i could see the numbers dwindle rapidly. but i was just hoping it was cos it was nearing their promos so the next year there would be more CF-ers.

so flashfoward to last wed when i went back to check out and help at the Open House. Ms Mai asked me over to the booth and when the comm suddenly all had to go to the toilet, she told me her worries of CF abt how uncommitted and spiritually immature they are. and from wad ive heard, its not just tt they are spirtually immature but also tt they do not see the need to grow. she asked me whether i can go back and help so i gladly told her tt she could always ask me for help. she seemed to really need the support and help and encouragement especially during this period. so tt started to get me concerned and when i went back for CF on fri, i had a long chat with qing and she had so many concerns and worries tt my heart really went out to her. she was frustrated over her comm and the Christian community in AC as a whole. they were the typical Christians only by name like those who would just swear like nobody's business but still calls himself a Christian. well tt is also a reason why there arent as many CF-ers. this also results in not enough manpower when it comes to events so she asked me to approach j3s to help as prayer warriors for the upcoming WUTS. to ask seniors to help would really mean tt they need help. so i gladly offered her my help. so with the CF in the current state it is with the uncommitted comm and the low numbers in a sch tts Christian community is srsly lacking, they really need our prayer and support. thankfully, the council is very helpful towards CF cos the president is a passionate CF-er herself. ill just continue to pray for them for a new big batch of passionate Christian J1s to fill the ranks of CF and for God to lead this grp of CF-ers. hopefully it isnt so bad as to turn the J1s away.

so keep the CF in ur prayers. ok its getting late so ill get into the church problems tmr. gonna sleep now. cyas:)

Project Serve So Far Pt. 2

hey guys, im back and as promised im going into wad ive learnt so far. just an update on life however, been busy planning to meet all my friends after wrk at night. so far met joanna today and meeting sarah on wed, cher on thurs and going back for CF on fri. tmr having BAK KUT TEH dinner with fam. have been craving bak kut teh for the longest time. anws hopefully i can confirm my meetings for next week and the week after soon. really have fun meeting up and catching up with friends. as u guys noe, i sort of prefer to meet up with pple one on one to just talk so it has really been a joy to just meet up with pple alone and not in groups where i can talk abt wadever.

ok so back to the point, the camp 2 weeks ago really spoke to me. basically it was abt other pple centredness, to take up the cross and deny oneself, and to be free to wrk for God. i have always seen myself to be someone who doesnt mind to inconvenience myself when it comes to helping friends. and although i try to do it often as i can, i might not be doing it all the time. i guess for myself, although i love helping other pple out, i dont really want them to rely too much on me or to take advantage of me. thankfully, after reflecting for some time, i realised tt i have been helping pple out out of love for them and not for selfish reasons. as most of u shld noe, in reality im not some egotistical proud guy though i make myself have this fake ego for pple to make fun of just for pple to have something to laugh at. so when i say tt i realised i have been helping pple out out of love, im not trying to boast or anything but im more of reflecting tt its a reflection of my love of someone. i noe its sometimes hard to gauge whether u love someone. since we are commanded to love even our enemies, how can we see tt we have truly loved them? so after reflecting abt the way i show my love, i actually realised tt it is an effective way to see whether u have truly loved someone. are u willing to go out of ur way and inconvenience urself just to help tt person do something? i guess if u are willing to put ur own self aside for tt person, u have truly come to love tt person. and by willing i dont mean begrudgingly.

then on fri at Connections, Mr Lim Chien Chong gave an awesome sharing on decisions and other stuff tt i cannot really rmb (forgot to take notes) but the main thing tt i can rmb now is tt truly one has to rely on God when making decisions and in one's everyday life. i rmb tt he was talking abt how one needs God in JC and i couldnt agree with him more. JC was the time when i really got connected to God and although it sort of stagnated at the end, it was a wonderful 2 years getting in tune with God. without AC i would have been aimless and not really having a relationship with God. u could say tt i was a good Christian in the sense tt i would having been making an effort to keep up God's laws but didnt really have a relationship with Him. He also made it so much better. after getting in tune with God, He gave me this peace tt His will is supreme and all i have to do is submit to it. He blessed me with this trust tt i could have in Him tt most pple would find difficult to do. i admit tt i did falter in my trust a few times but other than tt, i found tt it was this trust tt allowed me to submit myself to His will and not wry so much abt my studies which also allowed me to focus on my time in CF. i truly would not have survived without the Lord.

ok tts for the whole 1st week. lessons from last week will be posted tmr including today's lessons. its getting late alr so i gtg. cyas:)

Project Serve So Far

hey guys, this post was supposed to be posted up last week but i havent had the time. anws basically this post will be abt my past 2 weeks at project serve. ill be trying to post up once a day abt my life in project serve but when i cant, ill have a weekly one.

so the week started with staff meeting which was not bad but cos i didnt noe there was gonna be a msg, i didnt sleep enough the day before and so i was falling asleep. but after tt, i had an awesome time with my old ng of 2009, meeting up with my old ngls sophie and rachel again and with mano for the first time in a very long time. we had an awesome time of fellowship at settler's cafe at SMU and although it was a shame tt ian, ju and eve couldnt make it, it was a time well spent. so after mon came the super fun orientation camp with the cool project servants.

we had a nice time of worship and word about other people centredness at the YGOS place at woodlands and then we had the super fun (and tiring) "RACE!!" (which wasnt a race at all cos we all took our time (and my grp was last so we didnt consider it one so we didnt lose)) so it was basically a walk with tasks along the way, all leading to our campsite and the wonderful BB/GB Campsite which is actually where my church worships at. so i knew the area relatively well and had a fun time walking arnd 10-15 km to the various checkpoints and finally to the campsite. actually, something good came out of coming in last. since all the rooms were filled up, the guys in my group were given the air-conned bunk.

well on wed we had again worship and word and a time of reflection on the "Race" which really bonded the ministry together (just to clarify, we were grouped into our various ministries) we then had a raft building game which was fun except for the part where i was pumping up the inner tubes most of the time. it was an interesting lesson on how much we were willing to help and although it was a good activity to see how some pple would not go out of the way to help, there was a flaw in the fact tt there were too many pple in a grp so even if u wanted to help, there was no space to. i think the packing up was more fun for me but tts just me. and after washing up and everything we had another word session which was on freedom. Freedom from sin and into service. it focussed on like the secular contradiction of freedom and service but in reality, we have been freed from sin and now have the freedom to serve God.

ok its getting late and i have to sleep alr if not ill die at tmr's staff meeting. ill basically recap wadever happened to me this past 2 weeks but as of teachings and going into wadever ive learnt spiritually, ill do tt in tmr's post. ok so basically, this past week has been a time of learning new skills and learning of the word. on mon we had staff meeting, on tues we learnt camera angles and storyboarding and on wed we started filming for the advertisement for the PArts (Performing Arts) Valentine's Day Event. and on thurs we did street e which was super awesome. on wed we also learnt abt this evangelism tool called 2 ways to live which required us to memorise the whole tool and we had the test on thurs before we left for street e. ill talk more abt street e on the next post. on fri did devotions at bugis junction and finished filming for the advertisement. then we went back to edit. then on sat we did some additional filming and some editing and in the afternoon we had a thanksgiving session for those who helped out with CCIS last year where i met a few new friends and a new soon-to-be ACSian. oh yea the previous sat i did ultimate fristbee which was so fun. and i went back to acjc both on wed and fri for open house and CF respectively.

well tts like a summary of all i did the past 2 weeks. will talk more abt my growth in my spiritual life and wad i learnt tmr (hopefully). im gonna sleep now. cyas:)

CAMP!!!

hey guys, just a quick update. having the time of my life but struggling to fit all my friend meet ups with my busy schedule especially when some annoying ones cant confirm when they are available so i cant book my dates for them. anws going for camp tmr till thurs. quite excited!! anws pray for my safety and health and tt ill draw closer to God. thx guys. cyas:)

Merry X...no Christmas!!!!

hey guys!!! Merry (belated) Christmas and a Happy (early) New Year!!! YAY!!!! hopefully i can make this post a long one but if not ill try to post a long one soon. ok so with Christmas just passing, i have received many Christmas greetings and stuff through sms. and quite a few with "Merry Xmas!!!" which got me thinking... why would u discredit the One who gave us Christmas? ok im sure most of us have heard sermons on the importance of Christ in Christmas and the disappearance of Christ in Christmas today and it could get repetitive but when u really think abt it, its really true.

with Xmas being a common term tt even Christians use it, it really is sad. there can be no Christmas without Christ. so Xmas really has no meaning. thankfully, ive noticed a strong Christian msg especially in this year's ccis (celebrate Christmas in Singapore). ive been to orchard most of the days of ccis and ive noticed tt when the floats go by, there are no Santa Clauses but instead most of them are based on the nativity story. and there is a whole nativity story theme throughout orchard. for tt i really thank God for helping all the Christian organisations and churches make this year's CCIS such a success. many pple now noe wad the nativity story is and have now heard abt the birth of our Saviour. most of u may think tt this is such a small thing but the importance of this whole event is to plant the small seed into the pple's hearts. and i noe tt this event has accomplished this thanks to the Lord's providence.

ok im a bit sleepy so i cant think of proper words and stuff to express how i feel so this might be a bit disjointed and stuff. well qt for today was on Psalm 121 being tt God nv sleeps and tt He is always available to help. as its like 4:40 am now, it cant be any truer. ive realised tt during this period, ive been thinking abt getting a gf and ive really given this whole thing to God but i have been frustrated tt its taking so long. God has brought me back to Him and reminded me to be patient but once in a while, i would be wondering why its taking so long. since i got over subway girl fully early this year, ive realised tt although im still attracted to some girls, i noe tt i do not like them. and for me to really like a girl, ive set quite high expectations and to date only one girl has met them. ive sort of 1 primary requirement, 2 secondary, one bonus, and sort of one tts redundant. the redundant one is of course tt we have to hit it off and have a certain connection... i mean if tt is not even met, how can i like her rite?

the other requirements are sort of requirements not really to like but for me to like so much tt im willing to get into a relationship with tt person. and for me, im dating to marry so im srs when i get into a relationship. well the primary requirement is for her to be spiritually matured. the first secondary requirement is for her to like at least one thing i do like but it'll be a bonus (not the bonus requirement) for her to like everything i do. the 2nd would be looks (which in this case is not beauty but it would be the fact tt i can stand to look at her). and the bonus as with every person in the world would be looks in the beauty sense. since early this yr, ive realised tt only one girl meets all the requirements, even the bonus and its.............not my mom (im not tt cliche, my mom's the WOMAN who meets everything since she's the best!!! awwww....). but yea obviously im not gonna tell who it is:P. but the prob is tt she's attached rite now. so i guess she's not the one for me.

so ive just got to keep waiting and praying. well to link back to my qt, ive realised how much i need God during this time. with Project Serve starting and NS nearing, ive gotta rmb tt God is always there looking out for me and caring for me and tt i can always look to Him for help. so yea ive been reminded to continue to look to Him for help with my gf prob and to just trust Him to settle it. well this is long enough. gotta wake up early tmr!!! cya guys:)

Shorter Check-In

hey guys, really short check-in this time. cant believe im busier after As than before. anws if u guys see this, pls go down to the "celebrate Christmas in Singapore" (CCIS) booths in front of wisma and truly see the movement of Christians over this Christmas. the experience helping out on fri and sat night have been enjoyable. pls come for the CF Christmas party too if u can!!! ill be in malaysia tmr and coming back the day after just to let u guys noe. haha k ill try to post a long post next. cya:)

Short Check-In

hey guys, its super late alr and i gotta sleep. anws just checking in to say tt im making an effort to post regularly and almost daily but not for the next few days cos im not gonna be home tmr due to Decemberists (YAY!!!) and my church movie thingy on thurs will end really late and im not going home on fri cos im staying at Orchard Hotel after prom. so there may not be any updates for the next few days. doesnt mean tt the blog's dead again. anws im gonna sleep alr. have to meet someone from project serve at 9am tmr at Aljunied so gotta wake up early. cyas:)

WHOOTS!!!!

hey guys, long time since i posted and since As are over (YAY!!!!), i can finally start posting regularly. i was thinking of doing a vlog kind of thingy but tts still in the wrks (with first purchasing a nice video cam - still yet to do) so stay tuned for my first vlog (hopefully before i get conscripted). anws have been going out almost everyday so havent had the time to put my thoughts into "My Thoughts" (get it?) so finally found the time to do it today.

well after purchasing lots (and i mean lots) of stuff, i accidentally maxed out my card. thankfully its with all permitted purchases so i didnt get into trouble. the threadless order of US$359 pushed it over the edge so had to use my sis's card instead. so yea life after As have been interesting with prom shopping and Christmas shopping and catching up with seniors and friends. like after catching up with my friends i realise how much i treasure one on one talks. yea going out in groups is fun and all but u cant really talk about personal stuff in grps and talking personally to someone is really different and so much better than going out in grps. so just by thinking abt this, i started thinking abt how to ask someone out without asking someone out. this issue of course has to do with my friends who are girls. of course i can ask any guy out to talk without it being awkward (since everyone noes im totally straight...i hope). as most of u noe, most of my friends are girls so the problem comes when just a thought comes into mind when i just wanna meet up with one of my girl friends to talk..."wad if she thinks im asking her out?". of course i AM asking her out but u noe wad type of asking out im talking abt here.

of course most of my closer girl friends wouldnt think twice abt my request and just treat it as just a normal talking session and tts why i dont hesitate in asking them "out". but its those tt im not tt close to tt makes me think twice in asking them "out". since the point of me asking friends out is to get to noe them and the friends tt are not so close being those tt i want to get to noe, u would think tt they are the main ones tt i wanna ask "out" rite? so yea tt apparently is the dilemma here. and btw by not tt close friends i do not mean friends i rarely talk to but wad i mean is those friends who i am good friends with but are not close to the extent tt i can ask them "out" without them thinking twice... sort of like tier 2 in my old tier system. the friends tt i only noe superficially. so yea to sum up this whole dilemma, the ques is "how do i ask someone out without asking her out?" btw its a rhetorical ques cos its just a thought and im not really looking for an answer.

anws this dilemma is no big deal since i havent finished going out with my close friends yet and ive got so many things to enjoy and do. project serve starts next yr and cant wait!!! oh yea i just registered for my basic theory test for a test on 1st Feb next yr. im taking it super slowly and not really rushing it since ive got 2 yrs to finish getting my license. anws tts it from me today. going Tecman tmr to finish Christmas shopping!! cyas:)

Friends Pt.2

hey guys, dont noe why but being in A lvl mode has got me thinking abt lots of stuff lately. not having usual sch has really now forced me to look back at friends i have made through this 2 yrs.

as u guys noe, i used to have this rating/tier system of friends but i realised lately tt i dont really use tt system anymore. its now more like a come wadever kind of thing. i think i have recently taken a more "wide" view of friends in a sense tt im now looking at it in the Christian perspective. well im not really sure if i can call it a Christian perspective but its more like a perspective tt involves God. my whole perspective basically puts everything in God's plan. with anyone we meet, God has a plan for it. so basically my view is tt if someone has been put in my life, aka an acquaintance, there must be a reason for it. be it a simple thing like me showing the person how a Christian is or to something more far reaching like maybe i will help this person out of a tight spot sometime in the future. so after taking on this perspective, it has put my friends all in a new light. as i now believe tt there is a reason why i noe someone, i put most of wad most pple consider as mere acquaintances under the category of friends (my definition of a friend is someone i would go out of my way to help...it doesnt really take into account how deep i noe the person, tt comes under the classical theory of the degrees of friendship).

so now the new "quantum" theory (phys students will get the joke) is tt there are only 3 degrees of friendship to me now. its the acquaintance, friend and good friend lvls (which is actually just the classic lvls tt most pple have...im complicated, dont judge). however, my lvls are unique in a sense tt i have pple tt are usually not considered in certain lvls to be in those lvls (if tt makes any sense). like i said before, most pple tt i noe i consider friends, which is alr a major difference to the norm. so who's in the acquaintance lvl u may ask. well actually tt lvl is a temp lvl i feel tt is for pple tt are not even hi, bye friends. like we noe of each other but have not really officially met tt we dont even say hi. most pple would not even categorise them but i feel tt they shld still be categorised under this temp lvl cos as i said before, i have met them for a reason. so it is sooner or ltr tt i have an impact in their lives. or maybe i have had an impact and not even noe abt it. tts the awesomeness of God's plans.

so now with this new 3 lvls i look upon my friends with a whole new light. basically my goal is to make an impact on each an every one of my friends and to allow God to use me as His tool to help another person. an image tt i picture is like everyone in the world is an angel sent from God ready to be used. even non-believers can be used by God as an angel. so i believe tt as angels, we must be prepared to be used by Him.

i noe many pple have the theory tt only close friends are worth the time and effort to stay close to and to stay in contact with after their time with them ends and tt all the others tt are not as close can just disappear into the abyss of memories for all they care. to a certain extent i have to agree with tt but i have my own view of it. so again back to my belief, as i have a role to play in everyone tt i noe's life, if my job in tt person's life is not done, no matter wad God wouldnt let me leave the person's life. it could be just meeting each other by "coincidence" (which im not really a believer of) or it could be tt i might work with the person in the future. the bottom line is tt if God has a role for me in tt person's life, i would still be in tt person's life. so it doesnt really matter if i try hard or not to stay in the person's life. but contrary to popular belief, i believe tt this also applies to close friends. if ur role in someone's life, no matter how big, is over, there is no need to be sad over the drifting apart. its just tt there is no need for each other anymore and there are new angels tt will enter ur life. on the bright side u'll be able to reconnect back in heaven after the rapture.

i noe this is like quite a radical view but i believe it to be true and tts why i dont really mind if my friends and i drift apart. im may actually be a bit glad tt i have fulfilled the purpose tt God has assigned to me and tt my friend is along his/her way on the road of life noeing tt ive impacted him/her. i noe tt there may be some life long friends tt God may be blessing me with though and im sure they will always be by my side whenever i will need them. btw im not saying tt i wont try to keep in contact with my friends but i believe tt even though u try but theres just this invisible thing tt causes u to drift apart tt it may be just tt ur role has been fulfilled. and im not saying tt u'll nv see each other again, im just saying tt when the friendship aint the same anymore, maybe its tt ur role as tt kind of friend may have ended.

well i noe my belief might seem really weird to some but i find tt it is a really logical perspective and tt it actually helps me not get sad due to friendship probs. well tts it from me on this topic for now i think. let me noe if ive impacted ur life ks? i just wanna noe if im doing God's purpose for me. hope i made my perspective as understandable as possible. thanks and cyas:)

School

hey guys, just thought of posting up something. well there's lots of stuff going on in my mind and it may not be the right time to say some things but ill see wad comes out from my brain rite now...

well like the title says most of wads on my mind has its roots in sch. from friends to studies to sch ending and all other stuff in between... i gotta say tt this 2 yrs of my life was the most interesting period in my life. im really gonna miss AC lots. cant believe how many friends i have made over here. ive gotta say tt the friends were the ones tt got me through the tough times and if it wasnt for God sending me here, i'd still be lost in my faith... right now looking back, i wouldnt be so strict in my life listening to God's Word if i didnt come to AC. i really cant believe how much God has changed me in these 2 yrs.

it didnt start out tt good i assure u of tt. with 4 yrs in a boys sch undergoing puberty, im sure u can understand how i felt when i came to AC. i can assure u tt i wasnt a deprived boy or anything since i came from a mixed sch in pri sch but this was just different. looking back i regretted making a few girls feel super awkward by liking them and for tt i sincerely apologise but i couldnt help it... even though things with my class started out great, it suddenly took a turn for the worse and i didnt even noe how i became sort of an outcast in my class. but really as i look back (sry im super nostalgic rite now), i can see tt when i joined CF, my life started to change for the better. i met all my awesome friends who i love lots and i'd nv have met God in the way tt i have if i didnt join CF. seeing my journey in AC has indeed allowed me to see how God has worked in my life, through my now famous story of how my 12 pts brought me to AC and the other less known stories. one such story was how i was thinking of following my sister's footsteps to join council. i was alr in CF then and was thinking whether or not to join CF comm or council and during tt time i can say tt i wasnt really as close to God as i am now. so i made the choice tt i would join CF comm only if i was rejected by council, disguising it by saying tt God will show me wad He wants for me for getting me rejected from council, thinking tt i would be certain to join council.

and guess wad? i got rejected. surprisingly by the end of council interviews, i felt a tugging tt i know now to be God tt it was alright to be rejected by council. He reminded me how He led me into AC and to let Him show me the way again. and so when i found out tt i didnt get into council, i knew tt it was by His will and i gladly accepted it. He then helped me get into CF comm and from there, i became the person i am today. wow... im suddenly getting really nostalgic (i thought i couldnt get more nostalgic then i was).

well one reason out of the multitude of reasons for me missing sch is well, CF. i miss tt i wont be able to serve God in tt area again and i noe everyone is telling me tt there is a season for everything but like ill miss working for God in such an awesome sch like AC. but well ive come to terms with tt so no point in emoing over leaving CF again.

ive really met such awesome pple in AC. i would really like to list down each and everyone of u but i'd confirm miss a few of u guys so just to avoid hurt feelings ill just thank all u guys for being the friends tt u have been. listen to the lyrics to the song tt i have on rite now (if ive changed it, its "For Good" from Wicked The Musical), its for u guys (btw i knew this song before the baccalaureate so i didnt jew it). i know tt i have been changed for the better because i knew u guys. awww....

well tts the end for this post i guess. might update again if some new story of my life in AC comes to mind. just an update on life rite now would be just me studying so nothing much to update on. seems like the past is more interesting rite? I WANNA TRAVEL BACK IN TIME!!! well time to get off this now. will be leaving this vid for u guys. i posted it up on my fb wall and well not many pple noticed it i think so guess im posting it up here. its an awesome 12 min vid so i suggest u just click on the vid to watch a nicer screen version of it on youtube since my blog always cuts off half the player. wanted u guys to watch it before baccalaureate but well its nv too late to leave nothing unsaid. cya guys real soon:)

Why Apple Sucks!!

pls sync finish... pls!!! i need to sleep!!! [80% synced] crap someone's calling me!!! [sync cancelled] NO!!!!!!

this is for all u iphone/touch owners who hate the long syncs especially after restoring or getting a new phone. And blogs alive again!!!

Day 2 Of Shingles

hey guys, if anyone's still reading this blog...(which i think amounts to 4-5 pple, pls let me noe if u still read so tt i can decide the fate of this blog) well this is the 2nd day of my confirmed case of shingles. its technically like day 4 or 5? the virus attacks my nerves so officially the day i started to have weird feelings on my stomach and back was like on tues. then the spots came out i think 3 days ago. but i officially got diagnosed yesterday which u guys would noe from my prayer request.

so im not in much of a mood to study now and ive been stoning in front of the com the whole day. so i decided to stop by and give whoever's still reading an update. im sry if ive not been much talkative lately on my msgs, only sending out mass msgs and not replying but its cos it hurts anytime i move and reaching for my phone hurts (i noe it sounds lazy but trust me it hurts). so i cant really be bothered to get my phone to reply. and my brain's not working tt spontaneously as usual so again not really a good talker rite now. but apparently im typing fine...

so officially rite now i cant go to sch but im going to go to see the doc on mon for another check up and replenishment of my drugs and maybe get a letter to certify tt i can take prelims (not tt i really want to, its the parents decision not mine). dont be jealous guys cos i would rather take prelims than go through this pain and discomfort. well all i noe is the pain's gonna get worse and my discomfort's gonna too so just keep me in ur prayers guys. and on the bright side i can relax and play com for the next few days:)

really thank God for such good friends as u and i cant wait for this saga to end. im gonna need ur guys support through this. ks tts the end of this post. will update this daily until i get back to sch at least. cyas:)

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