Monday, March 22, 2010
21/03/10
hey guys since i typed so much yesterday, im gonna take a break today cos i just realised i gotta go sleep now. cyas tmrs. SCH REOPENS!!! HELLLOOOOO FRIENDS!!! cyas:)
Saturday, March 20, 2010
WHY RELATIONSHIPS SUCK!!!
hey guys, first non-date title in like quite some time. couldnt think of titles in the past so decided to name them after the dates but today's topic totally rocks so i decided to name it just tt. well this will be one of my infamous (if u can consider it tt) ranting posts so sit back and prepare to read ALL my thoughts. some of you (mainly 1 person *cough*poh*cough*) said tt my posts are so short so heres a long one for u.
well judith asked me bout subway girl today and it really got me thinking of how relationships suck. i mean u guys noe wad kind of relationships i mean. i think most of u tt have been in a relationship will agree with me and those of u tt are in a relationship rite now would violently disagree. and there are those very blessed pple who have nv been in a relationship before. actually, im not really talking abt relationships as a whole. of course the times when u are tgt are totally awesome. if they suck why even be in tt relationship rite? the crux of the issue is the start (wooing?) and the end (the BREAK-UP!!!)
the start of most relationships start with one party liking another party of the opposite gender (im not even going to mention abt the scenario with the same gender...whoops just mentioned it) and this can obviously turn into several scenarios (wow this is like totally turning into an analysis of relationships). theres the wonderful scenario where the other party turns out to like the first person and they live happily ever after. then the sort of troublesome scenario where the guy/girl has to woo the other person for some time and tt other person suddenly finds out tt she/he likes him/her. (ok for simplicities sake im going to start referring to the first person as a guy and the other person as (obviously) a girl). and after she likes him they live happily ever after. as a guy personally, tt scenario isnt too bad. i dont mind chasing a girl and going out of my way to do things for her (since i alr go out of my way to do things for everyone (not bragging just stating a fact)) so if i get the girl in the end im totally fine with it.
the worse case is when the girl after u chase her still doesnt like u. i mean u cant blame someone for not liking u. it might just mean tt tts not the one tt God has planned for u. im totally fine with tt. its just tt its frustrating. im sure most of u noe how it feels and like u feel (i feel anws) tt u are not loved. tt feeling is really horrible and its just totally crappy. obviously u are loved but during tt period of rejection u feel as though u are not able to be loved cos tt person doesnt like u. and tts why relationships suck. the process of getting into a relationship most of the time is guess work and anticipation and hoping only to be disappointed in the end.
then the middle of the relationship. ok first things first...to quote the zara monica weeeeeee "why cant we be dating and not be together". together in the sense of bf and gf and i totally agree. i mean i was going out with subway girl but i wasnt tgt with her. theres a total difference. and so getting back on point, the relationship im talking abt also includes the dating period and not just the period of time tt u are tgt. so the dating period of course is wonderful but i faced this problem when i was going out with subway girl. i could nv really see myself getting tgt with her for a long term. the thing was i didnt really noe how to say it. i mean when we were out we totally had fun but i just couldnt see it long term (btw im sure most of u tt noe the story noe tt it wasnt the breaking up but how we broke up). and tts the problem during the dating periods. what if u find out u dont see urself tgt with the girl long term. u enjoy going out with her and obviously u want to stay friends with the girl even if u arent tgt but how do u say tt?
and finally the end. im sure tts the worse part for everyone of us tt have been in a relationship except for the blessed few tt are still on good terms with their exs. well i dont really have to say much abt how sucky the process of the break-up is cos its pretty much granted. i didnt really have tt experience though but i think i got something worse. i really think tt a silent break-up is worse than a normal break-up cos u dont really have the closure u need. its like there isnt any chance at all to stay friends and like both of u are totally cut off from one another's lives. and like as u guys are Christians, the pple we date are also Christians and isnt it awful when u cut another Christian from ur life? totally sucky. and then there are some of us tt have the regrets of how they ended (ME!!!), why they ended, why i ended it? and other regrets after the whole thing has ended even yrs after the whole thing has ended and it can haunt us until we find another person which may take yrs and the whole cycle starts all over again. i mean ive put away and sort of come to terms with how it ended with subway girl but once in a while it comes back to haunt me again.
and this is the whole ongoing horror cycle of the relationship. so i have decided after long long hours of thinking tt i entrust my the ONE to God and whoever he has planned for me will come. i dont need to try to chase a girl and force a relationship to happen. these feelings may be just temporary and only love tt is in God is eternal. so why chase after something tt is temporary when God has someone planned for u. all tt u have to do is wait on Him to show the ONE to u. for now, im just happy cos i noe tt im loved. ive got wonderful friends all arnd me tt i noe all love me and ive got the ultimate love EVER!!! LOVE ITSELF!!! GOD!!! wad more can i ask for? and those of u tt still have regrets over past relationships, on opportunities lost, trust tt God has a plan for all this and tt if tt lost opportunity is truly the ONE God has planned for u, he wont be lost in ur life and He will put him back into ur life. but if he is not the ONE, then let God show u who is.
well ive fully preped myself for essay writing now. ill be writing another long essay maybe next week when i have like an hour to kill. i think tts arnd how long it took me to think and type this all out. maybe slightly less but u get the pt. an update on today is tt im totally dead tired cos of the 2 tuitions. ill nv have 2 tuitions on the same day ever again. it totally killed me!!! well tts it from me today. hope u are happy with the long post poh. cyas:)
well judith asked me bout subway girl today and it really got me thinking of how relationships suck. i mean u guys noe wad kind of relationships i mean. i think most of u tt have been in a relationship will agree with me and those of u tt are in a relationship rite now would violently disagree. and there are those very blessed pple who have nv been in a relationship before. actually, im not really talking abt relationships as a whole. of course the times when u are tgt are totally awesome. if they suck why even be in tt relationship rite? the crux of the issue is the start (wooing?) and the end (the BREAK-UP!!!)
the start of most relationships start with one party liking another party of the opposite gender (im not even going to mention abt the scenario with the same gender...whoops just mentioned it) and this can obviously turn into several scenarios (wow this is like totally turning into an analysis of relationships). theres the wonderful scenario where the other party turns out to like the first person and they live happily ever after. then the sort of troublesome scenario where the guy/girl has to woo the other person for some time and tt other person suddenly finds out tt she/he likes him/her. (ok for simplicities sake im going to start referring to the first person as a guy and the other person as (obviously) a girl). and after she likes him they live happily ever after. as a guy personally, tt scenario isnt too bad. i dont mind chasing a girl and going out of my way to do things for her (since i alr go out of my way to do things for everyone (not bragging just stating a fact)) so if i get the girl in the end im totally fine with it.
the worse case is when the girl after u chase her still doesnt like u. i mean u cant blame someone for not liking u. it might just mean tt tts not the one tt God has planned for u. im totally fine with tt. its just tt its frustrating. im sure most of u noe how it feels and like u feel (i feel anws) tt u are not loved. tt feeling is really horrible and its just totally crappy. obviously u are loved but during tt period of rejection u feel as though u are not able to be loved cos tt person doesnt like u. and tts why relationships suck. the process of getting into a relationship most of the time is guess work and anticipation and hoping only to be disappointed in the end.
then the middle of the relationship. ok first things first...to quote the zara monica weeeeeee "why cant we be dating and not be together". together in the sense of bf and gf and i totally agree. i mean i was going out with subway girl but i wasnt tgt with her. theres a total difference. and so getting back on point, the relationship im talking abt also includes the dating period and not just the period of time tt u are tgt. so the dating period of course is wonderful but i faced this problem when i was going out with subway girl. i could nv really see myself getting tgt with her for a long term. the thing was i didnt really noe how to say it. i mean when we were out we totally had fun but i just couldnt see it long term (btw im sure most of u tt noe the story noe tt it wasnt the breaking up but how we broke up). and tts the problem during the dating periods. what if u find out u dont see urself tgt with the girl long term. u enjoy going out with her and obviously u want to stay friends with the girl even if u arent tgt but how do u say tt?
and finally the end. im sure tts the worse part for everyone of us tt have been in a relationship except for the blessed few tt are still on good terms with their exs. well i dont really have to say much abt how sucky the process of the break-up is cos its pretty much granted. i didnt really have tt experience though but i think i got something worse. i really think tt a silent break-up is worse than a normal break-up cos u dont really have the closure u need. its like there isnt any chance at all to stay friends and like both of u are totally cut off from one another's lives. and like as u guys are Christians, the pple we date are also Christians and isnt it awful when u cut another Christian from ur life? totally sucky. and then there are some of us tt have the regrets of how they ended (ME!!!), why they ended, why i ended it? and other regrets after the whole thing has ended even yrs after the whole thing has ended and it can haunt us until we find another person which may take yrs and the whole cycle starts all over again. i mean ive put away and sort of come to terms with how it ended with subway girl but once in a while it comes back to haunt me again.
and this is the whole ongoing horror cycle of the relationship. so i have decided after long long hours of thinking tt i entrust my the ONE to God and whoever he has planned for me will come. i dont need to try to chase a girl and force a relationship to happen. these feelings may be just temporary and only love tt is in God is eternal. so why chase after something tt is temporary when God has someone planned for u. all tt u have to do is wait on Him to show the ONE to u. for now, im just happy cos i noe tt im loved. ive got wonderful friends all arnd me tt i noe all love me and ive got the ultimate love EVER!!! LOVE ITSELF!!! GOD!!! wad more can i ask for? and those of u tt still have regrets over past relationships, on opportunities lost, trust tt God has a plan for all this and tt if tt lost opportunity is truly the ONE God has planned for u, he wont be lost in ur life and He will put him back into ur life. but if he is not the ONE, then let God show u who is.
well ive fully preped myself for essay writing now. ill be writing another long essay maybe next week when i have like an hour to kill. i think tts arnd how long it took me to think and type this all out. maybe slightly less but u get the pt. an update on today is tt im totally dead tired cos of the 2 tuitions. ill nv have 2 tuitions on the same day ever again. it totally killed me!!! well tts it from me today. hope u are happy with the long post poh. cyas:)
20/03/10
hey guys, gonna try to keep it short today. first things first, since jan wants it... YOU ROCK JAN!!! haha she totally helped me with the movie and stuff so must really thank her for keeping me sane. well, today wasnt spent really productively. though i managed to do some wrk it isnt much so im gonna continue tmr after tuition. really need ur prayers for tmr cos ive got phys tuition at ghim moh at 2-4 and chem tuition at bishan at 5.30-7.30 and after tt ill be going for my grandma's birthday dinner so really need the energy and tts why im keeping it so short today and im gonna turn in earlier than usual. k then guys. cyas:)
Friday, March 19, 2010
18/03/10
hey guys, yesterday was too tired after coming home to blog. spent the entire day with judith, minfeng, poh and jotham watching movies and whose line. too bad jotham had to go earlier. really had a great time of fellowship and got to noe minfeng better since i havent really had a chance to talk to her before yesterday. tts the great thing abt getogethers like this cos although u see someone all the time in sch and are like considered "friends", u dont really get the chance to talk to each other with the busy sch life and things like tt. so its really great to have getogethers and i cant wait for the next one.
so today was totally spent watching movies for rew and i think we will be screening john q as the movie most prob (keep it a SECRET!!! SSSHHHHHHHH!!!) at night zach (my p5 godbrother) came over to play wii so i played wii from 7+ all the way till 10 and had a good talk with my godmom (cos she brought zach over) too.
well im gonna have to start doing my tuition hmwrk and on my chem hol hmwrk cos im gonna be having tuitions on sat so i wont have time to do my hol hmwrk too. thankfully its mcq so shld be fast. k then im gonna turn in now. i promise to sleep earlier tmr nite cos i will need to get used to the timing again before sch reopens. pls pray for me tt ill have the discipline to finish my wrk and especially pls pray for the comm as all of us are busy with rew so pray tt rew will be carried out smoothly and according to His will. rew will be one of the few big platforms for evangelism to the school body this yr so its quite a big thing so we will need ur prayers. thanks guys. cyas:)
so today was totally spent watching movies for rew and i think we will be screening john q as the movie most prob (keep it a SECRET!!! SSSHHHHHHHH!!!) at night zach (my p5 godbrother) came over to play wii so i played wii from 7+ all the way till 10 and had a good talk with my godmom (cos she brought zach over) too.
well im gonna have to start doing my tuition hmwrk and on my chem hol hmwrk cos im gonna be having tuitions on sat so i wont have time to do my hol hmwrk too. thankfully its mcq so shld be fast. k then im gonna turn in now. i promise to sleep earlier tmr nite cos i will need to get used to the timing again before sch reopens. pls pray for me tt ill have the discipline to finish my wrk and especially pls pray for the comm as all of us are busy with rew so pray tt rew will be carried out smoothly and according to His will. rew will be one of the few big platforms for evangelism to the school body this yr so its quite a big thing so we will need ur prayers. thanks guys. cyas:)
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
16/03/10
hey guys, today was spent basically on the com. had tuition which was interesting and went out for dinner with my parents. bought Mass Effect 2 so quite happy. just confirmed today too for my phys tuition. cos he's not having lessons next wed he'll be having a lesson on sat so ill be having 2 tuition lessons on sat so ill be really dead after the whole thing.
its been a really long time since i did a post on my qt here so heres today's qt. well today's qt is abt being thankful IN everything. the reason why i emphasised "in" is cos the qt is talking abt how although we cannot be thankful FOR everything, we can be thankful IN everything. i mean obviously its almost impossible to thank God for everything rite? i mean if i got cancer would i be, thank you Lord for giving me cancer? of course not. but to be thankful IN everything means tt i am thankful when God gives me cancer cos i noe tt from tt there will be some good tt comes from it. u guys noe how i always believe tt everything happens for a reason so even if i got cancer, God has a plan for it and good will always come out from it. so i can be thankful in tt situation but obviously not for the cancer. does tt make sense? haha i rmb i kept on saying "does tt make sense?" during my sharing. well so lets all be thankful IN every situation we face, be it good or bad cos we noe tt good always comes out from it. and fyi, i dont have cancer.
k its like super late now and ive gotta wake up at 7.30am tmr so tt i can be at judith's house by 9 for a movie marathon. cant wait. hopefully i wont oversleep like on mon and hopefully tt was a once off thing. well got a new alarm clock at least to help me wake up. haha k then. cyas:)
its been a really long time since i did a post on my qt here so heres today's qt. well today's qt is abt being thankful IN everything. the reason why i emphasised "in" is cos the qt is talking abt how although we cannot be thankful FOR everything, we can be thankful IN everything. i mean obviously its almost impossible to thank God for everything rite? i mean if i got cancer would i be, thank you Lord for giving me cancer? of course not. but to be thankful IN everything means tt i am thankful when God gives me cancer cos i noe tt from tt there will be some good tt comes from it. u guys noe how i always believe tt everything happens for a reason so even if i got cancer, God has a plan for it and good will always come out from it. so i can be thankful in tt situation but obviously not for the cancer. does tt make sense? haha i rmb i kept on saying "does tt make sense?" during my sharing. well so lets all be thankful IN every situation we face, be it good or bad cos we noe tt good always comes out from it. and fyi, i dont have cancer.
k its like super late now and ive gotta wake up at 7.30am tmr so tt i can be at judith's house by 9 for a movie marathon. cant wait. hopefully i wont oversleep like on mon and hopefully tt was a once off thing. well got a new alarm clock at least to help me wake up. haha k then. cyas:)
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
15/03/10
hey guys, today was a totally embarrassing day. well i overslept today and woke up at like 11+ when i was supposed to have comm meeting at 10 all the way at buona vista when i live in sembawang. if u noe me im usually on time for any cf stuff and like its rare of me to be missing. so the comm ltr told me tt they were like really worried something happened to me or tt i died or something cos im nv missing and like i didnt pick up my calls cos well i was asleep. tt really made me feel guilty and totally embarrassed but well...theres a first time for everything. even including oversleeping. and well...now i noe how much the comm cares for me(not tt i didnt noe tt before). i think its the first time i have ever overslept. the main cause of this whole fiasco is my stupid phone's alarm clock cos for some apparent reason, it didnt sound.
so after waking up and filling the comm in on the progress of the movie over the phone, i rushed down to sch by way of cab (cost me 16 precious bucks) and made it for the last part of the meeting. after tt we went to the swensens at holland for lunch and after tt i went to nlb at bugis to try to study. in the end i spent most of my time playing on my iphone but at least i still managed to complete a few ques on my tuition hmwrk. well went to plaza sing to meet my mom and my sis for dinner at ice monster (which was only mediocre) and came back home after my sis finished her drum lessons over at the yamaha at ps. then spent the rest of the night watching vids and planning the ngs.
well tt was my epic day today with the monumental occasion of oversleeping and missing some activity. i mean ive overslept before but not when ive got something on. well tts it from me today. tmr ive got maths tuition at 4(not sure whether to be sian or nots) and im hoping tt ive got the time to have a movie marathon to scan through the movies tt ive found to hopefully find a suitable one for rew. well gonna turn in now. cyas:)
so after waking up and filling the comm in on the progress of the movie over the phone, i rushed down to sch by way of cab (cost me 16 precious bucks) and made it for the last part of the meeting. after tt we went to the swensens at holland for lunch and after tt i went to nlb at bugis to try to study. in the end i spent most of my time playing on my iphone but at least i still managed to complete a few ques on my tuition hmwrk. well went to plaza sing to meet my mom and my sis for dinner at ice monster (which was only mediocre) and came back home after my sis finished her drum lessons over at the yamaha at ps. then spent the rest of the night watching vids and planning the ngs.
well tt was my epic day today with the monumental occasion of oversleeping and missing some activity. i mean ive overslept before but not when ive got something on. well tts it from me today. tmr ive got maths tuition at 4(not sure whether to be sian or nots) and im hoping tt ive got the time to have a movie marathon to scan through the movies tt ive found to hopefully find a suitable one for rew. well gonna turn in now. cyas:)
Monday, March 15, 2010
14/03/10
hey guys, had a great time today l4d2-ing today. really really enjoyed myself. service before tt was great too. helped as an usher today and cos i didnt have the time to change i went laning in my usher clothes.
today has been a really great day and i really thank God for blessing me with such great friends and for giving me this great day. after service i went for lunch with pastor edmund and we discussed abt my ambition to be a youth worker. he told me the pros and cons between trinity and sbc so now i can really make a decision on which college to go to to pursue either a masters or a degree in theology. for now the plan is to get a secular degree in psychology in either smu, nus or jcu (james cook) and then take a masters course in sbc (since sbc only offers masters courses). if in the future i plan to be a pastor in a mainstream church then i might go to trinity after tt but since im only planning to be a youth worker, i wouldnt need to graduate from trinity. so tts my plans for the future as of now. hopefully this wanting to be a youth worker isnt a phase just like my plans to be a game programmer and tt it really is my calling cos i really want to devote my life's work to God. since my passion is to further God's kingdom, i dont really have any interest in any other job except maybe in counselling or something similar to tt.
well today has also been great cos of one last thing tt happened today. u noe abt how im not really interested in the girl i liked? yea i apologised to her today abt the way i acted cos i felt tt i really made it quite awkward and i felt really guilty abt it cos i acted totally wierd. anyways she knew tt i liked her and thankfully we are on good terms now (hope u dont mind me saying this on my blog if u see this, girl tt i liked). the thing was tt i was really afraid tt she would just cut ties with me cos of the awkwardness (which i would not have blamed her for, but i suspected she wouldnt cos she's really nice) and thankfully our friendship has not really suffered from my foolishness.
i noe i havent had a good track record with handling how i express my feelings to a girl i like and i noe tt i make it really awkward. i think it has to do with some scarring from subway girl? haha just kidding...or am i? well wadever the case may be, i just suck at relationships tt go further than friendships in general. hopefully tt changes but oh wells... at least ive got great friends. like who needs a gf when u have so many many many great friends tt u can always talk to. i really thank God for blessing me which such great friends.
well tts my awesome day today. hope u guys are having similarly awesome days too. tmr's theres gonna be comm meeting in sch at 10 so ive gotta wake up at 8 so im gonna turn in now. cyas:)
today has been a really great day and i really thank God for blessing me with such great friends and for giving me this great day. after service i went for lunch with pastor edmund and we discussed abt my ambition to be a youth worker. he told me the pros and cons between trinity and sbc so now i can really make a decision on which college to go to to pursue either a masters or a degree in theology. for now the plan is to get a secular degree in psychology in either smu, nus or jcu (james cook) and then take a masters course in sbc (since sbc only offers masters courses). if in the future i plan to be a pastor in a mainstream church then i might go to trinity after tt but since im only planning to be a youth worker, i wouldnt need to graduate from trinity. so tts my plans for the future as of now. hopefully this wanting to be a youth worker isnt a phase just like my plans to be a game programmer and tt it really is my calling cos i really want to devote my life's work to God. since my passion is to further God's kingdom, i dont really have any interest in any other job except maybe in counselling or something similar to tt.
well today has also been great cos of one last thing tt happened today. u noe abt how im not really interested in the girl i liked? yea i apologised to her today abt the way i acted cos i felt tt i really made it quite awkward and i felt really guilty abt it cos i acted totally wierd. anyways she knew tt i liked her and thankfully we are on good terms now (hope u dont mind me saying this on my blog if u see this, girl tt i liked). the thing was tt i was really afraid tt she would just cut ties with me cos of the awkwardness (which i would not have blamed her for, but i suspected she wouldnt cos she's really nice) and thankfully our friendship has not really suffered from my foolishness.
i noe i havent had a good track record with handling how i express my feelings to a girl i like and i noe tt i make it really awkward. i think it has to do with some scarring from subway girl? haha just kidding...or am i? well wadever the case may be, i just suck at relationships tt go further than friendships in general. hopefully tt changes but oh wells... at least ive got great friends. like who needs a gf when u have so many many many great friends tt u can always talk to. i really thank God for blessing me which such great friends.
well tts my awesome day today. hope u guys are having similarly awesome days too. tmr's theres gonna be comm meeting in sch at 10 so ive gotta wake up at 8 so im gonna turn in now. cyas:)
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