Sunday, February 7, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
HIATUS!!!! AGAIN!!!!
hey guys, since mr koh wants me to update so badly. heres a quick update. life in jc2 is soooooper hectic so havent had the time to update. so im calling for a hiatus again until i get my life back in order. so here are a few quick highlights in my life to keep u guys updated. really had an enjoyable time surprising last night. auditioning for arts night on tues (doesnt really matter whether we get in or not...its all for the fun of it). planning welcome tea. planning REW (must pray for the whole comm). studystudystudy. passed my maths sub paper but failed chem by half a mark. hopefully dont have to go ssp so tt i can concentrate on cf. will have to start planning for cf camp soon. going to crash orientation on thurs and fri since i end early. today going to surprise another friend for her birthday. studystudystudy. chionging hmwrk.
phew... tts enough updates for u mr koh? haha well hope this post will last u until im free again. well tts it from me for the next few days/weeks/months/years. cyas:)
phew... tts enough updates for u mr koh? haha well hope this post will last u until im free again. well tts it from me for the next few days/weeks/months/years. cyas:)
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
OPEN HOUSE!!!
hey guys, today had open house. really draining but had lots of fun. it was a day well spent and really enjoyed my time even though i was bored during the later parts of the open house. hopefully we have promoted the awareness of CF as a cca and when the new batch of j1s come in they would choose to join cf. well tts it from me today. really tired and need to sleep soon. cyas:)
Today/Yesterday/Tmr
hey guys, just gonna do a quick one. today did my chem sup paper and did my maths sup paper yesterday. thank God they were relatively easy and i managed to do most of the ques. hopefully i pass. haha well there's open house tmr which im sure will be fun. pls pray tt we will be able to garner interest in CF so tt when the j1s come in they would be interested to join CF. well tts it from me for today. cyas:)
Monday, January 11, 2010
Sch Starts Tmr/Today!!!
hey guys, really feel quite down today. as some of u noe, i have managed to get a speaker for the cf camp in june. i was so happy when he said ok but i realised i forgot to clear it with the teachers and pastor joel. so i felt really bad abt tt. i msged ms mai abt it and she said to just check with pastor joel and to not do it again. then pastor joel told me tt it wasnt proper procedure (which i totally noe and felt bad cos of it) and told me to ask pastor ming to send an official invitation to him. i noe they didnt really say anything bad to me but i still feel quite bad tt i made such a mistake. wad if it was someone who is not theologically sound and after inviting the person i had to turn him away? thankfully the person tt i asked was a really good speaker and ms mai and pastor joel had no problems with him.
well im just hoping tt there are no lasting repercussions cos of my dumbness. pls pray for me tt ill learn from this mistake and move on. pray for me also tt ill be alert and be able to do my math sub paper tmr at 2.30pm to the best of my abilities and pray for the cf comm as they prepare the stuff for open house on wed. i wont be able to help them tmr cos ive got the paper and i gotta study for my chem sub paper on tues. well turning in super early today (relatively) so tt ill be well rested tmr. cyas:)
well im just hoping tt there are no lasting repercussions cos of my dumbness. pls pray for me tt ill learn from this mistake and move on. pray for me also tt ill be alert and be able to do my math sub paper tmr at 2.30pm to the best of my abilities and pray for the cf comm as they prepare the stuff for open house on wed. i wont be able to help them tmr cos ive got the paper and i gotta study for my chem sub paper on tues. well turning in super early today (relatively) so tt ill be well rested tmr. cyas:)
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Comfort
hey guys, today was another ordinary day with the game programming course. last lesson today other than the test next sat so YAY!!!! well after tt went for the prayer meeting and really prayed for the church. after tt went for dinner with the church members to sembawang shopping centre and had a nice fellowship. after tt went home and tried to study but quite fail lahs.
well today's qt was on 2 Corinthians 1:3-7. it really shows how God will comfort us and tt we shld respond by comforting others. reflecting upon this, i really feel tt God has comforted me a lot lately and has even sent my friends to comfort me through their care and concern. well im not sure whether i have comforted anyone in turn by i really try to show care and concern to as many pple as possible. not cos of some obligation or wadever but because i truly care for them. i think God has really blessed me with this caring heart and although it can be a burden sometimes (like caring for someone in pain so much tt i feel the pain too), i still feel tt it is a blessing tt it enables me to become a blessing to other pple. so if u are in pain, be assured tt God will comfort u, be it through the pple arnd u or other means. and for those tt have been comforted by God, pass on the comfort to those arnd u tt need it and bless them.
well tts it for my qt. gonna sleep alr if not im gonna fall asleep in church. haha pray for me tt ill be able to stay awake tmr during service and to be able to study tmr. SUB PAPERS ARE REALLY NEAR!!!! oh and pls pray for all the ogls cos i think some of them might be falling sick or losing their voices after the tiring camp and all tt cheering. well tts it for today. cyas:)
well today's qt was on 2 Corinthians 1:3-7. it really shows how God will comfort us and tt we shld respond by comforting others. reflecting upon this, i really feel tt God has comforted me a lot lately and has even sent my friends to comfort me through their care and concern. well im not sure whether i have comforted anyone in turn by i really try to show care and concern to as many pple as possible. not cos of some obligation or wadever but because i truly care for them. i think God has really blessed me with this caring heart and although it can be a burden sometimes (like caring for someone in pain so much tt i feel the pain too), i still feel tt it is a blessing tt it enables me to become a blessing to other pple. so if u are in pain, be assured tt God will comfort u, be it through the pple arnd u or other means. and for those tt have been comforted by God, pass on the comfort to those arnd u tt need it and bless them.
well tts it for my qt. gonna sleep alr if not im gonna fall asleep in church. haha pray for me tt ill be able to stay awake tmr during service and to be able to study tmr. SUB PAPERS ARE REALLY NEAR!!!! oh and pls pray for all the ogls cos i think some of them might be falling sick or losing their voices after the tiring camp and all tt cheering. well tts it for today. cyas:)
Saturday, January 9, 2010
I CANT THINK OF ANY TITLES!!!
hey guys, my creative juices are srsly drained now. cant think of any new title for the post. well i think its either a lack of sleep or stress but my brain is like on dream mode these few days. really cant think.
well today i srsly sort of broke down. sort of went emo today. it first started after dinner when i just got mad at my dad for something tt he did (not gonna tell u wad it was:P) and after tt got really emo. started to really feel a burden in how im serving God and everything. i mean im serving God wholeheartedly in CF but when i look at my church life, i feel tt im not really serving Him in church and additionally, i really dont feel attached to my church the way i think i shld. i mean i like my church and everything but there isnt this feeling tt i will stay in it for the rest of my life. i have grown up in Glory Joy since i was young and i love the pple in there, its just for some reason i feel something missing.
well after my dad and i cleared everything up, i really poured out everything to my parents. u see, im really worried abt how pple see me. i dont really care abt their opinion of me as a person, since really only wad God sees matters, but i want pple to see a good testimony in me. the problem is tt because im so busy with sch and cf, i dont seem very committed in church. my parents have been worried abt my studies and have asked me not to attend cell grp since im alr getting my spiritual feeding through cf. and i mean tts a valid reason but do the youths in my church noe tt? im not really worried abt the older ones cos im sure they understand but for the younger ones, they may think tt its ok to not go for cell grp cos a deacon's son does not go without noeing the true reason why.
i mean even after the yf is implemented i will of course be attending regularly but once in a while i might not be able to go cos of some sch or cf event and the younger ones may think tt its ok to skip yf once in a while. u see, im not really worried abt how they might think of me but im worried of wad they may think its ok without noeing the whole story. tts wad has really burdened me. they might also see me not really actively serving in church and think tt there is no need to serve.
i really feel burdened for these young pple and tts why i really want the yf to succeed. i initially really wanted to help out but thinking abt it, i really do not have the time to commit myself. when i told my parents this, they really understood where im coming from and like told me tt there is a season for everything. this might be the season where im serving God through CF and there may come a season where im helping out in the yf but its all in God's timing. all i have to do is trust God and His timing. and on the being a testimony part, they said it was something tt cannot be helped and the only thing tt i can do is to pray tt they would come to understand the whole story.
well on my church, i really love my church and the adults. i have grown up with them and they have seen me grow. the real problem i find is with myself mainly. i mean i think im just too different from the other church members. i just cant click with them. i can talk to the adults but the age gap is too big tt we cant be close. the youths on the other hand tt are arnd my age and younger have too different a background tt we dont really have much to talk abt. most of them speak more chi than me too so like i dont get some of their jokes. then comes the young adults. they are the grp tt i can speak most comfortably with but cos of the age gap too there comes sort of like a barrier? i noe tt the older guys try to include me in once in a while but i still feel left out sometimes. i noe it cant be helped so im just glad tt they try. so cos of who i am, i really dont feel like i belong in the church. quite ironic rite, i have been in the church longer than any of the young adults or youths but i feel the least belonged. and tts one of the reasons im quite in favour of merging with BCC cos i feel more comfortable with their youths than my own. this has really put some thoughts of changing church in my mind but well tts something for sometime in the far flung future.
when i expressed this to my parents, they told me tt i shld continue to try to integrate myself with the church and tt if really God leads me to another church in the future, they would support me but as long as God has placed me in this church, to make the most out of it. anyways i wouldnt leave the church without seeing the youths grow first. tt is my burden first and foremost and i feel tts wad God wants me to do. maybe now, maybe sometime in the future, ill just have to wait. i still love the church anyways so its not bad staying in this church tt i have grown in.
i mean maybe its cos of the tiredness or stress tt made me think of all these thoughts or maybe its God making me think. i dont noe why i had these feelings but i really thank God for parents who are able to help me through difficult times such as these and friends tt i noe i can talk to. well tmr got the game programming course again. then after tt gonna rush down to the church building for our monthly prayer meeting. pls continue to pray for me tt ill continue to trust God in His timing and for me to have strength for tmr. wow another super long post. thx for reading this if u made it all the way. k then gonna turn in soon. cyas:)
well today i srsly sort of broke down. sort of went emo today. it first started after dinner when i just got mad at my dad for something tt he did (not gonna tell u wad it was:P) and after tt got really emo. started to really feel a burden in how im serving God and everything. i mean im serving God wholeheartedly in CF but when i look at my church life, i feel tt im not really serving Him in church and additionally, i really dont feel attached to my church the way i think i shld. i mean i like my church and everything but there isnt this feeling tt i will stay in it for the rest of my life. i have grown up in Glory Joy since i was young and i love the pple in there, its just for some reason i feel something missing.
well after my dad and i cleared everything up, i really poured out everything to my parents. u see, im really worried abt how pple see me. i dont really care abt their opinion of me as a person, since really only wad God sees matters, but i want pple to see a good testimony in me. the problem is tt because im so busy with sch and cf, i dont seem very committed in church. my parents have been worried abt my studies and have asked me not to attend cell grp since im alr getting my spiritual feeding through cf. and i mean tts a valid reason but do the youths in my church noe tt? im not really worried abt the older ones cos im sure they understand but for the younger ones, they may think tt its ok to not go for cell grp cos a deacon's son does not go without noeing the true reason why.
i mean even after the yf is implemented i will of course be attending regularly but once in a while i might not be able to go cos of some sch or cf event and the younger ones may think tt its ok to skip yf once in a while. u see, im not really worried abt how they might think of me but im worried of wad they may think its ok without noeing the whole story. tts wad has really burdened me. they might also see me not really actively serving in church and think tt there is no need to serve.
i really feel burdened for these young pple and tts why i really want the yf to succeed. i initially really wanted to help out but thinking abt it, i really do not have the time to commit myself. when i told my parents this, they really understood where im coming from and like told me tt there is a season for everything. this might be the season where im serving God through CF and there may come a season where im helping out in the yf but its all in God's timing. all i have to do is trust God and His timing. and on the being a testimony part, they said it was something tt cannot be helped and the only thing tt i can do is to pray tt they would come to understand the whole story.
well on my church, i really love my church and the adults. i have grown up with them and they have seen me grow. the real problem i find is with myself mainly. i mean i think im just too different from the other church members. i just cant click with them. i can talk to the adults but the age gap is too big tt we cant be close. the youths on the other hand tt are arnd my age and younger have too different a background tt we dont really have much to talk abt. most of them speak more chi than me too so like i dont get some of their jokes. then comes the young adults. they are the grp tt i can speak most comfortably with but cos of the age gap too there comes sort of like a barrier? i noe tt the older guys try to include me in once in a while but i still feel left out sometimes. i noe it cant be helped so im just glad tt they try. so cos of who i am, i really dont feel like i belong in the church. quite ironic rite, i have been in the church longer than any of the young adults or youths but i feel the least belonged. and tts one of the reasons im quite in favour of merging with BCC cos i feel more comfortable with their youths than my own. this has really put some thoughts of changing church in my mind but well tts something for sometime in the far flung future.
when i expressed this to my parents, they told me tt i shld continue to try to integrate myself with the church and tt if really God leads me to another church in the future, they would support me but as long as God has placed me in this church, to make the most out of it. anyways i wouldnt leave the church without seeing the youths grow first. tt is my burden first and foremost and i feel tts wad God wants me to do. maybe now, maybe sometime in the future, ill just have to wait. i still love the church anyways so its not bad staying in this church tt i have grown in.
i mean maybe its cos of the tiredness or stress tt made me think of all these thoughts or maybe its God making me think. i dont noe why i had these feelings but i really thank God for parents who are able to help me through difficult times such as these and friends tt i noe i can talk to. well tmr got the game programming course again. then after tt gonna rush down to the church building for our monthly prayer meeting. pls continue to pray for me tt ill continue to trust God in His timing and for me to have strength for tmr. wow another super long post. thx for reading this if u made it all the way. k then gonna turn in soon. cyas:)
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