tired

relationships are so tough. i just feel like giving up and going back to being my old anti social self. so difficult to try. getting really lazy. HELP!!!

Friends Pt. ??

hey guys, cant rmb which part of these long friends posts im at rite now but i think its either 3 or 4? anws wad i really wanted to type here is to clear up any misconceptions of my largely critised view abt friendship. i think this phrase sums it up. i care more abt my friends than the friendship. like i said before, im quite ok with friendships not wrking out. yes im sad tt its not there anymore but im ok with it happening. its just wad happens in life. but i do still care abt tt friend and i would pray for her/him still. they would still be pple i want to be happy. its just tt if u do not really wish to stay in contact with me or even to be friends, and i tried my best to talk to u but u do not respond or respond in a harsh manner, then i dont see why i would need to put in so much effort to salvage the situation when u cant be bothered to even reply me.

i do still care for u and if 10 yrs down the road u text me, id still reply as soon as possible. so its not really tt im totally fine with friendships not wrking out, but its tt if one party does not want to respond to the other, i dont see why one shld make so much effort since effort has alr been made but failed. i guess this is a way for me to noe tt my purpose in tt person's life has been over. so like in my experiment, im trying to meet up with all the pple ive lost contact with and if tt person is fine with not reconnecting, then im fine with tt. anws i just thought to come up and reiterate my stand and to clear any miscommunications abt my statement last yr. ok im going off now. cya:)