Merry X...no Christmas!!!!

hey guys!!! Merry (belated) Christmas and a Happy (early) New Year!!! YAY!!!! hopefully i can make this post a long one but if not ill try to post a long one soon. ok so with Christmas just passing, i have received many Christmas greetings and stuff through sms. and quite a few with "Merry Xmas!!!" which got me thinking... why would u discredit the One who gave us Christmas? ok im sure most of us have heard sermons on the importance of Christ in Christmas and the disappearance of Christ in Christmas today and it could get repetitive but when u really think abt it, its really true.

with Xmas being a common term tt even Christians use it, it really is sad. there can be no Christmas without Christ. so Xmas really has no meaning. thankfully, ive noticed a strong Christian msg especially in this year's ccis (celebrate Christmas in Singapore). ive been to orchard most of the days of ccis and ive noticed tt when the floats go by, there are no Santa Clauses but instead most of them are based on the nativity story. and there is a whole nativity story theme throughout orchard. for tt i really thank God for helping all the Christian organisations and churches make this year's CCIS such a success. many pple now noe wad the nativity story is and have now heard abt the birth of our Saviour. most of u may think tt this is such a small thing but the importance of this whole event is to plant the small seed into the pple's hearts. and i noe tt this event has accomplished this thanks to the Lord's providence.

ok im a bit sleepy so i cant think of proper words and stuff to express how i feel so this might be a bit disjointed and stuff. well qt for today was on Psalm 121 being tt God nv sleeps and tt He is always available to help. as its like 4:40 am now, it cant be any truer. ive realised tt during this period, ive been thinking abt getting a gf and ive really given this whole thing to God but i have been frustrated tt its taking so long. God has brought me back to Him and reminded me to be patient but once in a while, i would be wondering why its taking so long. since i got over subway girl fully early this year, ive realised tt although im still attracted to some girls, i noe tt i do not like them. and for me to really like a girl, ive set quite high expectations and to date only one girl has met them. ive sort of 1 primary requirement, 2 secondary, one bonus, and sort of one tts redundant. the redundant one is of course tt we have to hit it off and have a certain connection... i mean if tt is not even met, how can i like her rite?

the other requirements are sort of requirements not really to like but for me to like so much tt im willing to get into a relationship with tt person. and for me, im dating to marry so im srs when i get into a relationship. well the primary requirement is for her to be spiritually matured. the first secondary requirement is for her to like at least one thing i do like but it'll be a bonus (not the bonus requirement) for her to like everything i do. the 2nd would be looks (which in this case is not beauty but it would be the fact tt i can stand to look at her). and the bonus as with every person in the world would be looks in the beauty sense. since early this yr, ive realised tt only one girl meets all the requirements, even the bonus and its.............not my mom (im not tt cliche, my mom's the WOMAN who meets everything since she's the best!!! awwww....). but yea obviously im not gonna tell who it is:P. but the prob is tt she's attached rite now. so i guess she's not the one for me.

so ive just got to keep waiting and praying. well to link back to my qt, ive realised how much i need God during this time. with Project Serve starting and NS nearing, ive gotta rmb tt God is always there looking out for me and caring for me and tt i can always look to Him for help. so yea ive been reminded to continue to look to Him for help with my gf prob and to just trust Him to settle it. well this is long enough. gotta wake up early tmr!!! cya guys:)

Shorter Check-In

hey guys, really short check-in this time. cant believe im busier after As than before. anws if u guys see this, pls go down to the "celebrate Christmas in Singapore" (CCIS) booths in front of wisma and truly see the movement of Christians over this Christmas. the experience helping out on fri and sat night have been enjoyable. pls come for the CF Christmas party too if u can!!! ill be in malaysia tmr and coming back the day after just to let u guys noe. haha k ill try to post a long post next. cya:)

Short Check-In

hey guys, its super late alr and i gotta sleep. anws just checking in to say tt im making an effort to post regularly and almost daily but not for the next few days cos im not gonna be home tmr due to Decemberists (YAY!!!) and my church movie thingy on thurs will end really late and im not going home on fri cos im staying at Orchard Hotel after prom. so there may not be any updates for the next few days. doesnt mean tt the blog's dead again. anws im gonna sleep alr. have to meet someone from project serve at 9am tmr at Aljunied so gotta wake up early. cyas:)

WHOOTS!!!!

hey guys, long time since i posted and since As are over (YAY!!!!), i can finally start posting regularly. i was thinking of doing a vlog kind of thingy but tts still in the wrks (with first purchasing a nice video cam - still yet to do) so stay tuned for my first vlog (hopefully before i get conscripted). anws have been going out almost everyday so havent had the time to put my thoughts into "My Thoughts" (get it?) so finally found the time to do it today.

well after purchasing lots (and i mean lots) of stuff, i accidentally maxed out my card. thankfully its with all permitted purchases so i didnt get into trouble. the threadless order of US$359 pushed it over the edge so had to use my sis's card instead. so yea life after As have been interesting with prom shopping and Christmas shopping and catching up with seniors and friends. like after catching up with my friends i realise how much i treasure one on one talks. yea going out in groups is fun and all but u cant really talk about personal stuff in grps and talking personally to someone is really different and so much better than going out in grps. so just by thinking abt this, i started thinking abt how to ask someone out without asking someone out. this issue of course has to do with my friends who are girls. of course i can ask any guy out to talk without it being awkward (since everyone noes im totally straight...i hope). as most of u noe, most of my friends are girls so the problem comes when just a thought comes into mind when i just wanna meet up with one of my girl friends to talk..."wad if she thinks im asking her out?". of course i AM asking her out but u noe wad type of asking out im talking abt here.

of course most of my closer girl friends wouldnt think twice abt my request and just treat it as just a normal talking session and tts why i dont hesitate in asking them "out". but its those tt im not tt close to tt makes me think twice in asking them "out". since the point of me asking friends out is to get to noe them and the friends tt are not so close being those tt i want to get to noe, u would think tt they are the main ones tt i wanna ask "out" rite? so yea tt apparently is the dilemma here. and btw by not tt close friends i do not mean friends i rarely talk to but wad i mean is those friends who i am good friends with but are not close to the extent tt i can ask them "out" without them thinking twice... sort of like tier 2 in my old tier system. the friends tt i only noe superficially. so yea to sum up this whole dilemma, the ques is "how do i ask someone out without asking her out?" btw its a rhetorical ques cos its just a thought and im not really looking for an answer.

anws this dilemma is no big deal since i havent finished going out with my close friends yet and ive got so many things to enjoy and do. project serve starts next yr and cant wait!!! oh yea i just registered for my basic theory test for a test on 1st Feb next yr. im taking it super slowly and not really rushing it since ive got 2 yrs to finish getting my license. anws tts it from me today. going Tecman tmr to finish Christmas shopping!! cyas:)