hey guys, dont noe why but being in A lvl mode has got me thinking abt lots of stuff lately. not having usual sch has really now forced me to look back at friends i have made through this 2 yrs.
as u guys noe, i used to have this rating/tier system of friends but i realised lately tt i dont really use tt system anymore. its now more like a come wadever kind of thing. i think i have recently taken a more "wide" view of friends in a sense tt im now looking at it in the Christian perspective. well im not really sure if i can call it a Christian perspective but its more like a perspective tt involves God. my whole perspective basically puts everything in God's plan. with anyone we meet, God has a plan for it. so basically my view is tt if someone has been put in my life, aka an acquaintance, there must be a reason for it. be it a simple thing like me showing the person how a Christian is or to something more far reaching like maybe i will help this person out of a tight spot sometime in the future. so after taking on this perspective, it has put my friends all in a new light. as i now believe tt there is a reason why i noe someone, i put most of wad most pple consider as mere acquaintances under the category of friends (my definition of a friend is someone i would go out of my way to help...it doesnt really take into account how deep i noe the person, tt comes under the classical theory of the degrees of friendship).
so now the new "quantum" theory (phys students will get the joke) is tt there are only 3 degrees of friendship to me now. its the acquaintance, friend and good friend lvls (which is actually just the classic lvls tt most pple have...im complicated, dont judge). however, my lvls are unique in a sense tt i have pple tt are usually not considered in certain lvls to be in those lvls (if tt makes any sense). like i said before, most pple tt i noe i consider friends, which is alr a major difference to the norm. so who's in the acquaintance lvl u may ask. well actually tt lvl is a temp lvl i feel tt is for pple tt are not even hi, bye friends. like we noe of each other but have not really officially met tt we dont even say hi. most pple would not even categorise them but i feel tt they shld still be categorised under this temp lvl cos as i said before, i have met them for a reason. so it is sooner or ltr tt i have an impact in their lives. or maybe i have had an impact and not even noe abt it. tts the awesomeness of God's plans.
so now with this new 3 lvls i look upon my friends with a whole new light. basically my goal is to make an impact on each an every one of my friends and to allow God to use me as His tool to help another person. an image tt i picture is like everyone in the world is an angel sent from God ready to be used. even non-believers can be used by God as an angel. so i believe tt as angels, we must be prepared to be used by Him.
i noe many pple have the theory tt only close friends are worth the time and effort to stay close to and to stay in contact with after their time with them ends and tt all the others tt are not as close can just disappear into the abyss of memories for all they care. to a certain extent i have to agree with tt but i have my own view of it. so again back to my belief, as i have a role to play in everyone tt i noe's life, if my job in tt person's life is not done, no matter wad God wouldnt let me leave the person's life. it could be just meeting each other by "coincidence" (which im not really a believer of) or it could be tt i might work with the person in the future. the bottom line is tt if God has a role for me in tt person's life, i would still be in tt person's life. so it doesnt really matter if i try hard or not to stay in the person's life. but contrary to popular belief, i believe tt this also applies to close friends. if ur role in someone's life, no matter how big, is over, there is no need to be sad over the drifting apart. its just tt there is no need for each other anymore and there are new angels tt will enter ur life. on the bright side u'll be able to reconnect back in heaven after the rapture.
i noe this is like quite a radical view but i believe it to be true and tts why i dont really mind if my friends and i drift apart. im may actually be a bit glad tt i have fulfilled the purpose tt God has assigned to me and tt my friend is along his/her way on the road of life noeing tt ive impacted him/her. i noe tt there may be some life long friends tt God may be blessing me with though and im sure they will always be by my side whenever i will need them. btw im not saying tt i wont try to keep in contact with my friends but i believe tt even though u try but theres just this invisible thing tt causes u to drift apart tt it may be just tt ur role has been fulfilled. and im not saying tt u'll nv see each other again, im just saying tt when the friendship aint the same anymore, maybe its tt ur role as tt kind of friend may have ended.
well i noe my belief might seem really weird to some but i find tt it is a really logical perspective and tt it actually helps me not get sad due to friendship probs. well tts it from me on this topic for now i think. let me noe if ive impacted ur life ks? i just wanna noe if im doing God's purpose for me. hope i made my perspective as understandable as possible. thanks and cyas:)
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
School
hey guys, just thought of posting up something. well there's lots of stuff going on in my mind and it may not be the right time to say some things but ill see wad comes out from my brain rite now...
well like the title says most of wads on my mind has its roots in sch. from friends to studies to sch ending and all other stuff in between... i gotta say tt this 2 yrs of my life was the most interesting period in my life. im really gonna miss AC lots. cant believe how many friends i have made over here. ive gotta say tt the friends were the ones tt got me through the tough times and if it wasnt for God sending me here, i'd still be lost in my faith... right now looking back, i wouldnt be so strict in my life listening to God's Word if i didnt come to AC. i really cant believe how much God has changed me in these 2 yrs.
it didnt start out tt good i assure u of tt. with 4 yrs in a boys sch undergoing puberty, im sure u can understand how i felt when i came to AC. i can assure u tt i wasnt a deprived boy or anything since i came from a mixed sch in pri sch but this was just different. looking back i regretted making a few girls feel super awkward by liking them and for tt i sincerely apologise but i couldnt help it... even though things with my class started out great, it suddenly took a turn for the worse and i didnt even noe how i became sort of an outcast in my class. but really as i look back (sry im super nostalgic rite now), i can see tt when i joined CF, my life started to change for the better. i met all my awesome friends who i love lots and i'd nv have met God in the way tt i have if i didnt join CF. seeing my journey in AC has indeed allowed me to see how God has worked in my life, through my now famous story of how my 12 pts brought me to AC and the other less known stories. one such story was how i was thinking of following my sister's footsteps to join council. i was alr in CF then and was thinking whether or not to join CF comm or council and during tt time i can say tt i wasnt really as close to God as i am now. so i made the choice tt i would join CF comm only if i was rejected by council, disguising it by saying tt God will show me wad He wants for me for getting me rejected from council, thinking tt i would be certain to join council.
and guess wad? i got rejected. surprisingly by the end of council interviews, i felt a tugging tt i know now to be God tt it was alright to be rejected by council. He reminded me how He led me into AC and to let Him show me the way again. and so when i found out tt i didnt get into council, i knew tt it was by His will and i gladly accepted it. He then helped me get into CF comm and from there, i became the person i am today. wow... im suddenly getting really nostalgic (i thought i couldnt get more nostalgic then i was).
well one reason out of the multitude of reasons for me missing sch is well, CF. i miss tt i wont be able to serve God in tt area again and i noe everyone is telling me tt there is a season for everything but like ill miss working for God in such an awesome sch like AC. but well ive come to terms with tt so no point in emoing over leaving CF again.
ive really met such awesome pple in AC. i would really like to list down each and everyone of u but i'd confirm miss a few of u guys so just to avoid hurt feelings ill just thank all u guys for being the friends tt u have been. listen to the lyrics to the song tt i have on rite now (if ive changed it, its "For Good" from Wicked The Musical), its for u guys (btw i knew this song before the baccalaureate so i didnt jew it). i know tt i have been changed for the better because i knew u guys. awww....
well tts the end for this post i guess. might update again if some new story of my life in AC comes to mind. just an update on life rite now would be just me studying so nothing much to update on. seems like the past is more interesting rite? I WANNA TRAVEL BACK IN TIME!!! well time to get off this now. will be leaving this vid for u guys. i posted it up on my fb wall and well not many pple noticed it i think so guess im posting it up here. its an awesome 12 min vid so i suggest u just click on the vid to watch a nicer screen version of it on youtube since my blog always cuts off half the player. wanted u guys to watch it before baccalaureate but well its nv too late to leave nothing unsaid. cya guys real soon:)
well like the title says most of wads on my mind has its roots in sch. from friends to studies to sch ending and all other stuff in between... i gotta say tt this 2 yrs of my life was the most interesting period in my life. im really gonna miss AC lots. cant believe how many friends i have made over here. ive gotta say tt the friends were the ones tt got me through the tough times and if it wasnt for God sending me here, i'd still be lost in my faith... right now looking back, i wouldnt be so strict in my life listening to God's Word if i didnt come to AC. i really cant believe how much God has changed me in these 2 yrs.
it didnt start out tt good i assure u of tt. with 4 yrs in a boys sch undergoing puberty, im sure u can understand how i felt when i came to AC. i can assure u tt i wasnt a deprived boy or anything since i came from a mixed sch in pri sch but this was just different. looking back i regretted making a few girls feel super awkward by liking them and for tt i sincerely apologise but i couldnt help it... even though things with my class started out great, it suddenly took a turn for the worse and i didnt even noe how i became sort of an outcast in my class. but really as i look back (sry im super nostalgic rite now), i can see tt when i joined CF, my life started to change for the better. i met all my awesome friends who i love lots and i'd nv have met God in the way tt i have if i didnt join CF. seeing my journey in AC has indeed allowed me to see how God has worked in my life, through my now famous story of how my 12 pts brought me to AC and the other less known stories. one such story was how i was thinking of following my sister's footsteps to join council. i was alr in CF then and was thinking whether or not to join CF comm or council and during tt time i can say tt i wasnt really as close to God as i am now. so i made the choice tt i would join CF comm only if i was rejected by council, disguising it by saying tt God will show me wad He wants for me for getting me rejected from council, thinking tt i would be certain to join council.
and guess wad? i got rejected. surprisingly by the end of council interviews, i felt a tugging tt i know now to be God tt it was alright to be rejected by council. He reminded me how He led me into AC and to let Him show me the way again. and so when i found out tt i didnt get into council, i knew tt it was by His will and i gladly accepted it. He then helped me get into CF comm and from there, i became the person i am today. wow... im suddenly getting really nostalgic (i thought i couldnt get more nostalgic then i was).
well one reason out of the multitude of reasons for me missing sch is well, CF. i miss tt i wont be able to serve God in tt area again and i noe everyone is telling me tt there is a season for everything but like ill miss working for God in such an awesome sch like AC. but well ive come to terms with tt so no point in emoing over leaving CF again.
ive really met such awesome pple in AC. i would really like to list down each and everyone of u but i'd confirm miss a few of u guys so just to avoid hurt feelings ill just thank all u guys for being the friends tt u have been. listen to the lyrics to the song tt i have on rite now (if ive changed it, its "For Good" from Wicked The Musical), its for u guys (btw i knew this song before the baccalaureate so i didnt jew it). i know tt i have been changed for the better because i knew u guys. awww....
well tts the end for this post i guess. might update again if some new story of my life in AC comes to mind. just an update on life rite now would be just me studying so nothing much to update on. seems like the past is more interesting rite? I WANNA TRAVEL BACK IN TIME!!! well time to get off this now. will be leaving this vid for u guys. i posted it up on my fb wall and well not many pple noticed it i think so guess im posting it up here. its an awesome 12 min vid so i suggest u just click on the vid to watch a nicer screen version of it on youtube since my blog always cuts off half the player. wanted u guys to watch it before baccalaureate but well its nv too late to leave nothing unsaid. cya guys real soon:)
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