hey guys, just popped by to say tt my qt really spoke to me. it was abt having joy during sad times. it was meant to be for those grieving but its also applicable to me i think. during sad times and sad occasions. we as Christians can always be comforted tt God has a plan and he noes wads best for us.i noe this and i thank God for reminding me this.
but im still hurting. although i trust tt God has a plan for all this, i just wish He would tell me wad it is. well i guess i just have to wait. im still having just in the midst of this sad time. but im still being sad at the same time. its just a sucky time so just pray for me.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Wrecked
hey guys, its been some time since my last post. dont really have an excuse other than not having the time or mood. lately ive been such a wreck. actually started only yesterday. dont noe why but for some reason during my timed assignment, i started thinking of subway girl. and like i dont noe why but now ive been thinking of wad went wrong and how i let her down and how i didnt treat her the way i should have tt chased her away.
like i said before it wasnt the breaking up but the way we broke up tt has bothered me till today. i noe its been like 2 yrs and i still dont get how she can hate me till today. i really want to bury the hatchet and let bygones be bygones but i just have nv been able to contact her cos she nv replies my emails in the past. im not sure whether i shld send her another email but i really cant be bothered if shes gonna dao again. its like im not even intending to get back tgt or anything. its just tt i feel really guilty and just want to patch things up with her. well theres no way to do tt.
well i dont noe why im suddenly thinking of her but i really want to stop. i really thought i was over with this since its been like 2 yrs but it suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks. now whenever ive got nothing to do or when im doing wrk (which is the same as doing nothing) she just pops up in my mind. and i go on emoing on wad i shld not have done and wad i shld have done. i really think tt the only way for me to get rid of this feeling is to find another girl. i just dont noe wads going on with me!!!
like i said before it wasnt the breaking up but the way we broke up tt has bothered me till today. i noe its been like 2 yrs and i still dont get how she can hate me till today. i really want to bury the hatchet and let bygones be bygones but i just have nv been able to contact her cos she nv replies my emails in the past. im not sure whether i shld send her another email but i really cant be bothered if shes gonna dao again. its like im not even intending to get back tgt or anything. its just tt i feel really guilty and just want to patch things up with her. well theres no way to do tt.
well i dont noe why im suddenly thinking of her but i really want to stop. i really thought i was over with this since its been like 2 yrs but it suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks. now whenever ive got nothing to do or when im doing wrk (which is the same as doing nothing) she just pops up in my mind. and i go on emoing on wad i shld not have done and wad i shld have done. i really think tt the only way for me to get rid of this feeling is to find another girl. i just dont noe wads going on with me!!!
Friday, April 9, 2010
Friends
hey guys, been really busy with rew so havent really updated. not tt there is anyone still reading my blog. well ive really been thinking abt friends recently and im really puzzled by how close i am with friends cos im like getting mixed signals from friends tt i thought i was really close to? well i have sort of always catagorized my different tiers of friends into arnd 5 tiers.
Fifth Tier: The hi and bye friends tt u see arnd sch and have only talked to them arnd once or twice. those u can talk to if u sit down with tt person but nv got the opportunity to talk so cant say tt we are close or anything. more than an acquaintance, less than a friend
Fourth Tier: Just friends tt i can talk to but not really often. pple tt i usually dont hang with but when u get us tgt i can talk for hrs. its just lower than the third tier just because of the lack of opportunities to talk
Third Tier: heres the start of the better friends. this is the group of friends who i will talk to and we usually have opportunities to talk but we just have fun chatting but we dont really have the closeness tt ill feel comfortable telling u who i like or wads serious probs im going through in my life
Second Tier: these friends are the second best friends tt i have. they are the pple tt i totally trust and can really talk to them. however, there is just something missing tt keeps us from having tt really comfortable closeness tt i can say anything and do anything and it wont be misinterpreted. so there is still a certain level of discretion needed for these friends but are still close nonetheless.
First Tier: this is where all the pple tt i treat as friends tt i can talk to when im troubled and friends tt i noe i can always trust fall. the closeness is usually telling when u can hug or lean against each other without being awkward and there are only a few pple tt i have this closeness to. these friends are those tt i treasure the most (not tt i dont treasure the other tiers) and are the ones tt im usually see hanging out with. they are the group of pple tt i can have no discretion in wad i say or wad i do cos i noe it wont be misinterpreted.
the actual prob with my friends is usually between the top 3 tiers. pple tt i thought to be in the second tier can sometime seem to be in the third tier. or even first tier pple seem like second tier. its just really confusing and i sometimes dont noe how to act with them cos wad if they treat me as a third tier friend while im treating them as a second tier one. my tiers are usually depicted by the tier i am in with other pple cos im the type of person tt will treat others how they usually treat me. so its weird sometimes when a person treats me like a second tier friend all the while and suddenly treats me like a third tier one. its ust really really confusing. ill let u guess which tier u guys are in.
well tts it for my mini rant. gonna sleep now. got tuition at 7.30am tmr. cyas:)
Fifth Tier: The hi and bye friends tt u see arnd sch and have only talked to them arnd once or twice. those u can talk to if u sit down with tt person but nv got the opportunity to talk so cant say tt we are close or anything. more than an acquaintance, less than a friend
Fourth Tier: Just friends tt i can talk to but not really often. pple tt i usually dont hang with but when u get us tgt i can talk for hrs. its just lower than the third tier just because of the lack of opportunities to talk
Third Tier: heres the start of the better friends. this is the group of friends who i will talk to and we usually have opportunities to talk but we just have fun chatting but we dont really have the closeness tt ill feel comfortable telling u who i like or wads serious probs im going through in my life
Second Tier: these friends are the second best friends tt i have. they are the pple tt i totally trust and can really talk to them. however, there is just something missing tt keeps us from having tt really comfortable closeness tt i can say anything and do anything and it wont be misinterpreted. so there is still a certain level of discretion needed for these friends but are still close nonetheless.
First Tier: this is where all the pple tt i treat as friends tt i can talk to when im troubled and friends tt i noe i can always trust fall. the closeness is usually telling when u can hug or lean against each other without being awkward and there are only a few pple tt i have this closeness to. these friends are those tt i treasure the most (not tt i dont treasure the other tiers) and are the ones tt im usually see hanging out with. they are the group of pple tt i can have no discretion in wad i say or wad i do cos i noe it wont be misinterpreted.
the actual prob with my friends is usually between the top 3 tiers. pple tt i thought to be in the second tier can sometime seem to be in the third tier. or even first tier pple seem like second tier. its just really confusing and i sometimes dont noe how to act with them cos wad if they treat me as a third tier friend while im treating them as a second tier one. my tiers are usually depicted by the tier i am in with other pple cos im the type of person tt will treat others how they usually treat me. so its weird sometimes when a person treats me like a second tier friend all the while and suddenly treats me like a third tier one. its ust really really confusing. ill let u guess which tier u guys are in.
well tts it for my mini rant. gonna sleep now. got tuition at 7.30am tmr. cyas:)
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Awesome Skit
hey guys, need to sleep so ill leave u this awesome skit. im sure most of u have seen it before but its great to watch it again. it was performed by the j3s last yr for rew and was shown again this yr during the speaker's msg so heres tt awesome lifehouse skit. btw if anyone noes how to make sure the vids dont get cropped pls let me noe. haha thx:) cyas:)
Monday, April 5, 2010
REW!!!! DOUBLE WHOOOOOTTTTTSSSS!!!!
hey guys, gonna sleep alr cos i need to be in sch by 6.20 tmr for rew prep. well today church was great seeing 3 friends getting baptised. its really awesome to see fellow Christians profess their faith through baptism. well tts it from me today cos ill need the rest for tmr though ill leave u with this awesome vid. sry if its cut off though. cyas:)
Sunday, April 4, 2010
REW!!!! WHOOOTTS!!!!
hey guys, been really busy with sch and funorama and rew and such so havent really had the time to update. well it has been a fun and interesting journey through funorama and all the way till now. really had fun shopping and chatting with friends and seeing all the seniors again. really really having a great time in sch now even with all the work piling in. well tts wads so great bout ac aint it? we mug but we have a great time doing it. unlike those mugger schs like nj (not to say tt nj aint great, just tt ac's better...obviously) and anws its really great to have such wonderful friends to travel this journey with, especially in the comm cos as u noe rew is just 2 days away and u can see a few of the comm members running arnd like headless chickens stressed over the prep. wad can i say, we are just as last minute as every comm before us (according to ms mai at least), keeping the tradition alive.
well really had fun with mf and nigel yesterday playing l4d2!!! i finally found a use for the defibrillators cos during the last level of the dead centre campaign, i accidentally jumped off the third floor of the mall to my death so thankfully there was a defibrillator near where mf was so i asked her to revive me. so the defibrillators arent so useless after all. yesterday had so many great memories from tt first use of the defib unit to our whole team being destroyed by just one charger. see on one of the levels, think its parish, u have to activate this moving platform and defend against a horde. we were doing so well before then but as all of us got to the 2nd floor to defend better against the horde, a charger threw both nigel and i off the 2nd floor, killing me(guess i suck at heights?) and causing lots of damage to nigel. so just cos of tt 1 charger we had to restart tt chapter.
so finally got my phone exchanged so i can finally surf wi-fi with my phone again. YAYS!!! well God has really blessed me lately and i really cant ask for more. lately its just been smooth sailing and even though there has been some bumps along the road (keeping with the journey metaphor), its still has been great. the only thing tt really has bugged me is when i hear the pple arnd me going through tough times cos i really get worried for them. there have also been many pple falling sick (partially due to the awesomeness of funorama) which has made me even more worried but God has reminded me abt the power of prayer lately (thx nigel:) and so ive been trying to pray more. i dont really have many prayer items for myself rite now but pls pray for all those arnd u, esp those going through tough times, tt God may deliver them, heal them and bless them. continue to also pray for rew tt there may be open hearts and tt they will be touched.
i dont deny tt there will always be a vibe of apathy arnd the sch since Christianity is not "cool" but ill just trust God to touch the sch and to bring whoever He has in mind to us. if there is even one person who has been touched, even if he doesnt accept Christ, im satisfied. if we can plant the seed in even one person, then all our hard work is well worth it (although im not sure whether jas or jiap might be able to say the same thing seeing how much they have put in). well just continue to keep rew in prayers. cyas:)
well really had fun with mf and nigel yesterday playing l4d2!!! i finally found a use for the defibrillators cos during the last level of the dead centre campaign, i accidentally jumped off the third floor of the mall to my death so thankfully there was a defibrillator near where mf was so i asked her to revive me. so the defibrillators arent so useless after all. yesterday had so many great memories from tt first use of the defib unit to our whole team being destroyed by just one charger. see on one of the levels, think its parish, u have to activate this moving platform and defend against a horde. we were doing so well before then but as all of us got to the 2nd floor to defend better against the horde, a charger threw both nigel and i off the 2nd floor, killing me(guess i suck at heights?) and causing lots of damage to nigel. so just cos of tt 1 charger we had to restart tt chapter.
so finally got my phone exchanged so i can finally surf wi-fi with my phone again. YAYS!!! well God has really blessed me lately and i really cant ask for more. lately its just been smooth sailing and even though there has been some bumps along the road (keeping with the journey metaphor), its still has been great. the only thing tt really has bugged me is when i hear the pple arnd me going through tough times cos i really get worried for them. there have also been many pple falling sick (partially due to the awesomeness of funorama) which has made me even more worried but God has reminded me abt the power of prayer lately (thx nigel:) and so ive been trying to pray more. i dont really have many prayer items for myself rite now but pls pray for all those arnd u, esp those going through tough times, tt God may deliver them, heal them and bless them. continue to also pray for rew tt there may be open hearts and tt they will be touched.
i dont deny tt there will always be a vibe of apathy arnd the sch since Christianity is not "cool" but ill just trust God to touch the sch and to bring whoever He has in mind to us. if there is even one person who has been touched, even if he doesnt accept Christ, im satisfied. if we can plant the seed in even one person, then all our hard work is well worth it (although im not sure whether jas or jiap might be able to say the same thing seeing how much they have put in). well just continue to keep rew in prayers. cyas:)
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